S20E08 - Expectations
: 09 kwie 2010, 11:24
Secret Scene: Coach
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYPg38LMWj8
Coach bestows his holy cross necklace to Russell as a symbol of their friendship and trust in the game
(Day 19)
Coach: This is big time. I've got my speech all prepared.
Russell: Tell me what you got. I'm not gonna kneel or nothing, but where should I stand?
Coach: That's good right there. The Knights of the Round Table had a code of honor.
Coach (solo): Russell wanted me to give him a cross. We've talked about being Christians out here. He doesn't want to bring that into the game, but I've been open with him about it and kind of forced Russell to talk about being a Christian man. He wanted to have a ceremony that solidified it.
Coach: With this cross, we can never lie to each other. If I put it around your neck, we can never break this bond. In this game or out of this game.
Russell: Sounds good to me.
Coach: Trust you to the end.
Russell: I trust you to the end.
Russell (solo): Coach wanted to solidify the Knights of the Round Table to I don't even remember what he said. Coach is kind of a weird cookie when it comes to bringing things together. He summoned it around my neck to bring us closer together. It's a good gesture. I think it really works for him. It doesn't work so much for me. Every king needs a Dragon Slayer. I have one. (laughs) That's a perfect match.
Coach: This will change this game and any others to follow.
Coach (solo): This today meant a lot. I told him hey, we are like Knights of the Round Table. You can't lie to me now, ever. I don't think he's going to, but I said you can't lie to me, and I won't lie to you. We basically made a pact that we would have each other's backs the entire way.
Coach: To the end, my friend.
Russell: To the end, Coach. Russell Hantz and Coach to the end.
Coach (as Russell starts to walk away): I like you, man. You're a sharp cat.
Russell: I like you too.
Coach (after Russell is gone): I just made my bed right there.
Coach the Day After
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xf5B9w4kr0s
"My crowning moment was when I stepped onto that beach the first day. Everybody thought I was going to be torn alive by Colby. I went out there and I played him like a fiddle, used jujitsu at the end, frogmarched him and manhandled him to the mat. That was my favorite moment because it showed I was here to play on a number of levels. I was indeed going to make my weaknesses my strengths. I think the target that was on my back from the first minute we stepped out there was erased because of that moment."
"Hope would always spring eternal with me, thinking OK, we've fiddle-farted around, we've mucked around enough, we've lost back-to-back-to-back-to-back challenges, certainly this tribe is gonna wake up and see that Courtney with a sprained ankle, or Sandra, who had to be drug along the challenge that day, would go home. That's why I was blindsided, because I didn't realize that surely the tribe was voting off people that deserved to be there, surely the tribe had no respect at all for any part of the game other than strategizing. Certainly the tribe of Villains had no respect whatsoever for self-discipline or the art of survival."
"I adapted and I tried to adapt to them, while still carrying my standard. It wasn't enough."
"I feel like I'm the biggest failure, because I want to give everything I have. It doesn't matter if people around me don't want to reciprocate. That one night I was like, I give everything to everybody, I give my heart and soul to this game, to everyone around me. To have that not reciprocated, and Tyson's advice to me, don't wear feathers in your hair when you go to Tribal, and stop telling your stories. Nobody wants to believe them. Maybe people do, but the one or two people who don't will ruin it for everybody and plant seeds of doubt for everybody. That's what he told me. He was like, 'I'll coach you through this.' I thought about it and thought about it for about 15 seconds, and I said nobody is gonna change who I am. You can't, (points finger in another direction) you can't, nobody else can, except for yourself. I was not going to play and conform to everybody else. But I did play more heroically, I did play this game not for the fact that I went all the way to the end and won the ultimate prize; sometimes the ultimate prize we set out is not the ultimate prize we want and need. The greatest adaptation we can have as human beings is to receive the negative, from outside, the negative comments and perceptions, the negativity that people basically want to cut us down to their level because we're not like everybody else, and I'm not like anybody else. To take that negativity, to put it through a filter, and use it. Either discard it or carry it inside of you and let it change who you were. I realized when I got back from Brazil that the man I was 10-15 years ago when I was kayaking, was not the man I had become, and certainly not the man I wanted to be. I want to be a better man, every day, as iron sharpens iron. That's my motto. That's why I have this tattoo on my chest. Inspiring other people, while making myself a better man, is what I think life is all about. Taking that negativity, not letting it break me, but saying, you know what, I'm gonna take those things. Let me be more chivalrous. I don't wanna be misogynistic, I want to be chivalrous. That's who I am. I don't want to be the coach who's always right. As a coach you do always have to be right, but that can't be the Dragon Slayer, that can't be who I am. Let me admit when I'm wrong. Let me not be bandying about this banner of saying let's take the strongest to the end, oh by the way, let me kind of go in the back door because I'm not one of the strongest. No. I took all those things and I fused it into what I already had. Like I said, take your weaknesses and make them your strengths, take your strengths and make yourself invincible. I think I executed that in this game exactly as I set out to."
"Did I find redemption? Yes. Why is that? Like a sword, tested and true, a sword that goes into the fire and forges character, you say to yourself and the sword says to itself and the knight that holds that sword says to themselves, I think this is ready for battle. Do you truly know until that sword and knight have tasted blood of battle? Do you truly know? You do not. I changed from Brazil. I became somebody who was more penitent, I became somebody who was a more valiant warrior in challenges, I became somebody who was not always right, who was not always condescending, but was I truly? Those are times of comfort between Brazil and here. Times of controversy and change, the battle itself, I tested myself in this game. Did I ring through? Absolutely. I humbly think so."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYPg38LMWj8
Coach bestows his holy cross necklace to Russell as a symbol of their friendship and trust in the game
(Day 19)
Coach: This is big time. I've got my speech all prepared.
Russell: Tell me what you got. I'm not gonna kneel or nothing, but where should I stand?
Coach: That's good right there. The Knights of the Round Table had a code of honor.
Coach (solo): Russell wanted me to give him a cross. We've talked about being Christians out here. He doesn't want to bring that into the game, but I've been open with him about it and kind of forced Russell to talk about being a Christian man. He wanted to have a ceremony that solidified it.
Coach: With this cross, we can never lie to each other. If I put it around your neck, we can never break this bond. In this game or out of this game.
Russell: Sounds good to me.
Coach: Trust you to the end.
Russell: I trust you to the end.
Russell (solo): Coach wanted to solidify the Knights of the Round Table to I don't even remember what he said. Coach is kind of a weird cookie when it comes to bringing things together. He summoned it around my neck to bring us closer together. It's a good gesture. I think it really works for him. It doesn't work so much for me. Every king needs a Dragon Slayer. I have one. (laughs) That's a perfect match.
Coach: This will change this game and any others to follow.
Coach (solo): This today meant a lot. I told him hey, we are like Knights of the Round Table. You can't lie to me now, ever. I don't think he's going to, but I said you can't lie to me, and I won't lie to you. We basically made a pact that we would have each other's backs the entire way.
Coach: To the end, my friend.
Russell: To the end, Coach. Russell Hantz and Coach to the end.
Coach (as Russell starts to walk away): I like you, man. You're a sharp cat.
Russell: I like you too.
Coach (after Russell is gone): I just made my bed right there.
Coach the Day After
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xf5B9w4kr0s
"My crowning moment was when I stepped onto that beach the first day. Everybody thought I was going to be torn alive by Colby. I went out there and I played him like a fiddle, used jujitsu at the end, frogmarched him and manhandled him to the mat. That was my favorite moment because it showed I was here to play on a number of levels. I was indeed going to make my weaknesses my strengths. I think the target that was on my back from the first minute we stepped out there was erased because of that moment."
"Hope would always spring eternal with me, thinking OK, we've fiddle-farted around, we've mucked around enough, we've lost back-to-back-to-back-to-back challenges, certainly this tribe is gonna wake up and see that Courtney with a sprained ankle, or Sandra, who had to be drug along the challenge that day, would go home. That's why I was blindsided, because I didn't realize that surely the tribe was voting off people that deserved to be there, surely the tribe had no respect at all for any part of the game other than strategizing. Certainly the tribe of Villains had no respect whatsoever for self-discipline or the art of survival."
"I adapted and I tried to adapt to them, while still carrying my standard. It wasn't enough."
"I feel like I'm the biggest failure, because I want to give everything I have. It doesn't matter if people around me don't want to reciprocate. That one night I was like, I give everything to everybody, I give my heart and soul to this game, to everyone around me. To have that not reciprocated, and Tyson's advice to me, don't wear feathers in your hair when you go to Tribal, and stop telling your stories. Nobody wants to believe them. Maybe people do, but the one or two people who don't will ruin it for everybody and plant seeds of doubt for everybody. That's what he told me. He was like, 'I'll coach you through this.' I thought about it and thought about it for about 15 seconds, and I said nobody is gonna change who I am. You can't, (points finger in another direction) you can't, nobody else can, except for yourself. I was not going to play and conform to everybody else. But I did play more heroically, I did play this game not for the fact that I went all the way to the end and won the ultimate prize; sometimes the ultimate prize we set out is not the ultimate prize we want and need. The greatest adaptation we can have as human beings is to receive the negative, from outside, the negative comments and perceptions, the negativity that people basically want to cut us down to their level because we're not like everybody else, and I'm not like anybody else. To take that negativity, to put it through a filter, and use it. Either discard it or carry it inside of you and let it change who you were. I realized when I got back from Brazil that the man I was 10-15 years ago when I was kayaking, was not the man I had become, and certainly not the man I wanted to be. I want to be a better man, every day, as iron sharpens iron. That's my motto. That's why I have this tattoo on my chest. Inspiring other people, while making myself a better man, is what I think life is all about. Taking that negativity, not letting it break me, but saying, you know what, I'm gonna take those things. Let me be more chivalrous. I don't wanna be misogynistic, I want to be chivalrous. That's who I am. I don't want to be the coach who's always right. As a coach you do always have to be right, but that can't be the Dragon Slayer, that can't be who I am. Let me admit when I'm wrong. Let me not be bandying about this banner of saying let's take the strongest to the end, oh by the way, let me kind of go in the back door because I'm not one of the strongest. No. I took all those things and I fused it into what I already had. Like I said, take your weaknesses and make them your strengths, take your strengths and make yourself invincible. I think I executed that in this game exactly as I set out to."
"Did I find redemption? Yes. Why is that? Like a sword, tested and true, a sword that goes into the fire and forges character, you say to yourself and the sword says to itself and the knight that holds that sword says to themselves, I think this is ready for battle. Do you truly know until that sword and knight have tasted blood of battle? Do you truly know? You do not. I changed from Brazil. I became somebody who was more penitent, I became somebody who was a more valiant warrior in challenges, I became somebody who was not always right, who was not always condescending, but was I truly? Those are times of comfort between Brazil and here. Times of controversy and change, the battle itself, I tested myself in this game. Did I ring through? Absolutely. I humbly think so."